Living life with the end goal in mind

I really wish I was selfless. I want very much to love God with all my heart, soul, and mind, and love others as He first loved us. I want to obey all the laws within his word and want to follow all the commandments he has given us. I can't. I can't do it. Praise God for the great mediator who is His son, or I'd be in some major trouble to say the least.

Bottom line is, I'm selfish. I can't get over myself. I wish I'd never been born in this flesh which is sin, but that is the human condition. It's every humans problem that we're born with.

And why should I not get over myself if I live with the end goal in mind. I want my life to look like Paul's. I want to count everything aside from knowing Christ as rubbish. And, in all reality, everything aside from knowing christ, investing in others lives and living out what God asks of us through his law and commandments is rubbish. That is, it's rubbish if I live with the end goal in mind. My treasure is in heaven! Why can't I wrap my thoughts around that? My reward will be eternity in heaven, with God- Who will bestow joys upon me which are unconceivable. Why should I live this life for me? It's not about me! God didn't create this world and the 6 billion other people in it for me. It's by his grace and mercy that he created me in the first place.

So, with that knowledge my life should look radically different. Genuine christian lives should look radically different. That knowledge should change how we live.

My ultimate goals in this life are these-
When I'm on my deathbed, I'll be able to say much like Paul "I did it. I did all God called me to do. There's nothing left on this earth for me to do, I've done it. I've fought the good fight"
And, when people look at my life I don't want them to say "Blake Russell is an awesome guy."
I want people to say "Jesus Christ is an awesome God." If people see any good in me- I hope they'll see Jesus Christ, not Blake Russell.

Apart from Christ, I have nothing good. Christ is my only boast! That is it, that is all. Apart from Christ my life is meaningless. I can only begin to praise Him for saving me.