So here is what's going on in my life

I shouldn't enjoy talking about myself, but I do. I suppose it's the human condition. Regardless, I think it might be time to fill all you readers (the two or three of you that is) in. Here's what's going on in my life! Spiritual things, and not so spiritual things.

I've applied for an internship at colonial pres. I've been praying about it, and I very much hope I get this internship. It will most obviously happen if it's the Lords will. I'll be honest- I have much peace, but I'm not as excited as I'd like to be. I suppose the excitement will rise tomorrow after my interview with some of the staffers if it goes well. I know that I already appreciate Cory's heart and some of the other staffers I've met seem to be right on as well. I'm most excited about this internship stretching me (that is if it happens) and having the opportunity to share my heart.

Three of my best friends and I are searching for a house in midtown. We all plan to attend UMKC, and have a few houses in mind. I'm quite excited about this as well. We plan on having the house be a place of prayer, service, christian community and outreach. Fellowship will also play into this house. I need to pray over this group of fellows and house more however. I believe we are going to model the house after the early church and the book of acts. If this happens, we've also considered turning the house into a house church of sorts. This idea needs a lot of prayer filled consideration, but it'll probably look like a "house church" whether we decide to call it that or not.

I had the opportunity of speaking to Ryan Kapple the other day. He is a dandy fellow and the pastor of Leawood pres. I thank Him for spending time and having fellowship with me. The conversation raised a lot of questions and convictions inside of me. I am charismatic, and I most definitely believe in the gifts. I'm not certain about this, but I believe the Lord gives me visions. I also believe the Lord has given me a passion for teaching, and perhaps gifted me there as well. Ryan encouraged me to pray about these things more specifically and see what the Lord wants with them. He also encouraged me to explore using my gifts in the church. I have a lot of praying to do about these things specifically. It was a great conversation.

Colossus, my band recently lost many members. We found a new bassist. His name is Alex Chapman and He is a dandy fellow. He is serious about his faith, and also serious about music. It's great when these two passions converge and definitely a rare thing when one has these two convictions and likes the kind of music we play. We are desperate for a drummer. We are praying, but i assure you, not enough. The Lord will provide and if He does not then clearly it's time for us to put Colossus on the ropes so to speak. In the meantime, we'll continue writing music. We're planning to record a few songs and use a drum program to finish them. We may not be able to play shows, but we can still attempt reaching out to people with our music through the internet. If anything, our songs might plant a seed and someone might check out Jesus because of it. This is more than fine with me.

I'm thinking about getting a tattoo (or is it tatoo? whatever) on my chest. I want it to be Paul's conversion scene. The piece itself would most likely be quite large. I would plan on the piece being very dark, and gothic (and by that I'm referring to the color scheme). The scenery, and paul himself would be blacks, grays and maybe dark blues. The brightness of the piece would be the light in the sky (Christ) shining down on Paul. Paul would most obviously be on his knees, shielding his face from the Lords glory. The light itself would be many bright colors- preferably yellows, whites, and maybe even orange/gold. Christ would not be depicted in any way, other than the light itself. I don't want to paint a picture of what He looks like in my mind, because I have no clue He looks like. That'd be an idol of sorts.

Seeing as how Christ revealed himself through light, and God through fire in the burning bush (He does many things like this), I think it'd also be cool to have this verse tattooed under the scene. Psalm 43: 3-4 Send out your light and your truth; let them lead me;let them bring me to your holy hill and to your dwelling! Then I will go to the altar of God, to God my exceeding joy,and I will praise you with the lyre, O God, my God. This is just an idea however, and I probably won't go through with it.

I'm looking into buying a new vehicle and a scooter. Nick welch inspired me. I want to get a wagon. The scooter is going to be a dandy as well.

I want to get married soon, and maybe meet my wife even sooner. I'm not ready for this I assure you, but who is?

I hope to take a roadtrip this spring break.

And lastly, I want to be in love with Jesus. My heart feels cold. I can't stand it.

Sorry, most of this ended up being more spiritual than I expected. I guess I just can't think of anything else worth talking about. My english teacher said that some people need God for a reason to live. He most definitely isn't a believer, but He was exactly right.